Everyone struggling with addiction needs someone that understands and gets them and is further along in recovery than they are. A guide, someone in addition to an addiction certified therapist (a specialist in your addiction is preferred to a generalist). Someone for free that has achieved life without acting in their addiction and can guide you through what you can do to gain the insight and practice of living healthy outside this addiction. The community aspect of 12 step is key as well as the help from a sponsor you must seek out and ask for. P.S. This is for general education purposes, I am not your counselor or coach.